Long queue…red light, green light…silence.

Pounding chest…cold, sweaty hands…weakened knees.

Trembling voice…tears of repentance…firm resolve


Gush of relief…joyful heart…triumphant soul

Jesus said to them again, “Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, even so I send you.”

And when he said this, he breathed on them and said to them, “Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained.”

-John 20:21-23

I personally regard the Sacrament of Penance as a bountiful source of grace, instituted by Christ himself to the apostles.

I was born and raised Catholic. I still remember in the late 1980’s, my cousins and I, together with our aunts, gather at our grandmother’s house at seven in the evening to pray the Holy Rosary together. We used to queue for Confession together during special seasons in the Liturgical Calendar such as Advent and Lent. Our compound was just across the Parish Church.

I received my Elementary and Secondary education in a Catholic school run by nuns. And Catholic practices and teachings were inculcated to me all the more.

There were times in my life when I was away from God. I prayed less, did not receive the Holy Communion for a long time, and did not go to Confession for years. But there would always be circumstances that make me take a U-turn towards what I perceive as true and good. The Guilt that Haunts Me from time to time is not the guilt due to something wrong that I did. Rather, it was the longing for God’s presence in my life. For without God, I am nothing and I have nowhere to go.

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The Sacrament of Penance is my surest way to Heaven. I am grateful that there is a Sacrament of Penance, my refuge and my hope for nth chances from a merciful and loving God.

It is the Season of Advent for the year 2015. What a perfect time to recollect oneself and go to Confession.


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